You are never alone. There is always someone out there who cares about your well-being. But sometimes life gets to you in tough times and you can feel completely alone.
I know my family, friends, coworkers, and Instagram pals care about me and how I am doing. I know I can reach out for help or just to talk to a number of people. That is, of course, wonderful. But when are live alone and you are dealing with so many things in your mind it is difficult to not feel alone in the world. I felt so much comfort from being in a couple, even while we were just sitting around watching tv. I do not like being alone most of the time. I get anxious, bored, lonely, etc.
Last night I had already had an emotional day. I started scrolling Instagram reels like one does. I started sobbing in my bed from so many of them, even though they were not sad. I was crying because my life had ended up in such a different place than I ever imagined and so different from "normal" people's lives. Not all bad and some things I never 100% wanted, but it is still a thought that comes sometimes. Why don't I have these l like everyone else?
- Romantic Proposal
- Marriage
- Kids
- Parents
- Dad Walking me Down the Aisle
- Travel
- Relationships
- Insane Outdoor Adventures
- Announcing exciting news to Parents or Friends
You grieve things that you lose in life like partners, death, jobs, etc. You also have to grieve things you will miss out on for whatever reason or a future of something you dreamt of. There is a lot to think about in life that is special to you. How do you hold on to it? How do you honor those things that are no longer here?