Here it is, Thankful Thursday Part 2.
This week I would like to thank my parents. Everyone should be lucky enough to have parents as supportive as mine. They have been there through everything in my life. It has been financial and emotional support even if they have not agreed with all of my choices.
I have tried to be a "good daughter," but things have challenged me in life. New parents hope and dream for amazing things for their child. "My child is going to be a doctor." "My child is going to be a lawyer." "My child is going to be president of the United States." I struggled all through school with mediocre grades and not enough focus. This led to poor choices in high school without any direction for college. I slid through 3 years at a junior college, still not knowing what I wanted to do with my life. My parents tried to help me with all of this, but it was up to me and me alone. I eventually went to Humboldt State University. They approved of that choice since we had camped their a lot as a family when we were little. My choice of Art History as a major was not as well received. I should have listened to them at the time since it go me absolutely nowhere. But I did graduate and I believe that is the important part of that story.
The last six years after college, I have bounced from thing to thing. Although most of it has been rewarding, I still do not have a direct path in life. I assume this worries both of my parents. I feel sometimes that I could have been more and maybe this disappoints them. It could be worse, my worse. At least I am not a criminal or a drug addict.
Burden is a painful word. Since my diagnosis last year, I feel like I have put pressure and worry in my parents lives. They have enough to deal with. My mom has her own health to worry about and my dad looks after her. I never wanted to add more to their plate.
Despite my insecure feelings at times, I know that both of my parents love me no matter what happens. All they want for their children is happiness. Hopefully we can both achieve that more often any other feeling in life.
I love you mom and dad.