Today I just felt anger about him. He said some incredibly hurtful things while breaking my heart. He said was pretending to be happy with me. I don't know for how long. How do you say that kind of thing to someone you continued to say "I love you" to. What is wrong with you? If you were so fucking unhappy with me that you didn't even want to come home at night, why didnt you say anything? why didnt you just dump me? I don't understand and I never will.
I was so in love with this person, unconditional love. I cared about them, how they felt, what they wanted and needed. If they had cared about my feelings like they said they did, they would have acted differently. Handled things better.
For months, I thought you would show up and apologize. Realize that we were good together and make some romantic gesture. Why would I think that? You were obviously over whatever we once had. You had grown tired of me and resentful.
I deserve more from someone. I have to remind myself of that, every single day.